man, it feels good to be a gangsta

Or to just get a ton of errands completed. Same thing.

Today, in the span of approximately 2 hours, I went to 10 different places, accomplished 10 different errands, AND gave my son a ton of driving experience. Thank you for the applause. (bowing, curtseying, and bowing again)

I might have had some caffeine prior and asked God to allow me to remember to do all the things while I was out. Because inevitably I typically get home, pop off my shoes, and then remember that I should have picked up the much needed tortillas for dinner happening in just an hour while I was out at Dollar General just ten minutes prior. *ugh and eyeroll*

But not today, folks. I wrote it all out on a note that I DID NOT leave on my counter. I’m telling you, I was in rare gangsta form!

My errands were not anything fabulous - getting gas, picking up school forms for the boys, cashing a check, dropping off donations (that always feels like a big win!) - but they were accomplishments nonetheless. Many days I feel like I’m dragging, always about 3 steps behind where I should be. My plate is full, I acknowledge that, but most days I feel like the vegetables are sliding off the plate!

As of late, I have had this feeling of lost-ness. I feel like I’ve been trying to figure out the direction of my life, but it’s been just out of reach. Today was a turning point for so many reasons. God has been lining some important things up for me (at my request but ultimately because I needed them) and showed them to me in various ways today. I’ve been trying to handle it all and figure it all out and He finally just said, “No, I’ll show you what you’re going to do.”

Guys, HE'S my NOTE that I DIDN’T forget on the kitchen counter! When I leave home without it, I often truly feel lost like I’m running around always forgetting at least one thing. But when I have that note with me, I just check off each thing as I go, relying on the note, not on my own wayward brain. God is my note, my companion, my go-to for directions, the one I rely on when I haven’t got it all figured out, which is all the time every day for the first half and second half of my life.

The Bible even tells me so: Psalm 32:8 - “I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will counsel you with my loving eye on you.”

Guess it’s time for me to stop saying, “I’ll figure it out!” and let God just point.